Embarrassing

Because I live with anxiety I also get to live with 30 years of embarrassing memories that play on a loop in my head whenever it starts to get too quiet. I know I’m not the only one who deals with this particular type of anxiety and I think it’s a fairly human thing to…

Original Thoughts

I’ve spent a lot of time wanting to write a book. I mean most people want to do something creative with their lives: Rockstars, Painter, Opera Singers, Broadway whatever. I wanted to be Stephen King. My biggest issue is that although the ideas are there, the drive is there, the need is there. I- just…

This is Your Brain on Negativity

SO. Part of my charm is that I’m an asshole, not a physical one sadly, but one of those ‘say what they mean’ kind of assholes. Back in my youth this would have been called being ‘blunt’ or ‘honest’, but we know the truth now; we’re just assholes. Some people like this aspect of my…

I Miss My Brother

He lives in Seattle and it hasn’t even been a full year and my friends I miss him every day. It was hard enough for me when I moved out, I hadn’t been without him in 29 and a half years and I know it was hard on him too. Now he’s two whole states…

The Little Therapist (A Brief Account)

This is gonna be a weird one kids, strap in cause were going on an existential ride in to the caverns of my mind! Put your hands up! DO IT! PUT YOUR GOD DAMN HANDS UP!   I’ve probably needed to see a therapist since I was 10 or 11 years old, I was in anger management…

To the Person Whose Wedding I Will One Day Ruin

Look, it’s not entirely your fault and that’s probably going to be the hardest part for you to swallow. It’s actually someone else’s fault for putting you in the position you were put in only for you to do exactly what you always do and disappoint us all. But me, you especially disappointed me. I…

Eating Well and The Bullshit I Tell Myself

I don’t like eating well, I don’t. I can’t say who doesn’t, because I know so many people who see a bunch of carrots and start salivating like a horse on a hot July afternoon. But me? I just never got the taste for healthy eating. I’ve tried, please do not think I haven’t; it’s…

Grim is a Friend

I’m not afraid to die. I’m not looking forward to getting to that point, nor do I want it to end any quicker than it’s supposed to; but I’m not afraid. I think I spent so much time navel-gazing as a teenager and that maybe the hours spent inside of my head gave me a…